Oh, lovelies. It feels so good to have the time to post.
are so many changes going on in my life right now and while they're
scary, they're also thrilling. Isn't that always the way of it? I hate to do this but I
really can't say what these changes are just yet! I CAN say that I'm
really taking control of my life and that a change of scenery is
definitely on the agenda. I sometimes wish that this blog was anonymous,
usually at times like this when I'm dying to share things with you guys
but I'm a little afraid of the news I share here affecting how I'm able
to time things and share things in my life. Then I remember how good it
feels to have a space that has so much of me in it and I am happy that
I'm not just a fake, internet persona. In conclusion: Big news. Coming
soon. When the time is right.
I can share a little about one change that I'm contemplating. I have been struggling to
find time to work on my book. I've been making some progress but I'm
just so wiped out from work and school and sometimes the words on the
screen just start to look like a different language. I'm considering NOT signing up for more classes this coming semester. I love school but I really feel like I need a break. I'm afraid of actually doing it because I worry that I may be justifying what is essentially plain old laziness on my part, with writing. I thought about taking a writing class...which would seem to fit neatly in to my recent endeavors but somehow that just doesn't feel like the right decision either.
I've been working hard, lately, to get to a place where I am not ashamed of my choices. People may not understand walking away from money for the sake of fulfillment or walking away from school to learn more...but if I feel it's right then I have to be proud of my decisions. That's what I'm telling myself anyway. It feels important and necessary to listen to my heart completely, which is something I've never really done. Whenever I hear people talk about school, I get anxious and I want to be a part of it, even though I am! I don't think that feeling will go away and hopefully, if I take a break, that's what will guide me back to it, in a semester or two.
Breaks can be awesome or terrible ideas. What's the worst that will happen? I'll regret it?
Have you ever taken a school break? Was it restorative or did you lose your momentum?
P.S. I failed EPICALLY in my quest to stay away from the TV this past weekend. A goal for this weekend? Maybe!