This print really sums up what I've been focusing on for the past few weeks. Every day, I wake up and I think "just get through today".
I'm actually kind of happy at the moment. I'm not upset anymore. For a few days there, I was really upset. Now I'm just kind of....empty. I know that the word 'empty' sounds negative but I'm not viewing it that way.
Sometimes when I'm really happy and I don't have anything to gripe about, I worry that I'm not being realistic about things. That I'm not being honest with myself. I know this isn't healthy duh but I can't help it. Also, it doesn't REALLY keep me from being happy. It's just something that crosses my mind from time to time when things are good.
To say that I'm 'empty', to me, means that I have this opportunity to really work on myself. To build myself back up and hopefully make some improvements. I always say that I want to make changes in my life but I'm always so wrapped up in that life to slow down and examine what I actually want to work on. This time, where I've been feeling so blue, has brought a kind of...silence to my life and I hate to say it but....it may be just what I need. Now that the hurt has passed, all I'm left with is the emptiness. And emptiness means that there is room in me for growth.
I'm thinking of this as the knot in the end of my rope. Something to hold on to.
That and the fact that I have some awesome things planned for this blog. I can't thank you darlings enough for all of your support through was has been an unexpected difficult time for me. I'm thinking of a way to thank you guys that I hope you'll love.
Tomorrow is Thursday! Let's finish this week out on a high note.
I'm glad to read you're coming out of whatever the "sad" phase was. I hope it leaves you stronger.
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I know what you mean about empty not always being a bad thing. It's kind of a clean slate sometimes where you can start over. There is new possibility and hope.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad some of the hurt is over, darling. You hang in and keep holding on.
xx, C
Exactly, a clean slate.
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So happy to hear you're feeling a bit better! Take it day by day, and make sure to notice the little things :)
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Yay! I step towards happiness.
ReplyDeleteThere's always room to grow.. and things to fill yourself/ your time up with!
I love that quote at the very top. :)
Yes! Haha.
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It's cliche to say but you know, what doesn't kill us.... Glad to see you're having a more positive spin on things.
ReplyDeleteIt's so true though. Thanks so much :)
DeleteYou're right - sometimes being empty is easier than being sad or in pain. It gives you room to do things, and just be, and gives you room to figure out what you need :-)
ReplyDeleteI love that quote, and print - thanks for sharing it.
Take care, Michele
Yes, exactly. Thank you :)
DeleteI think I can kind of relate to that "empty" feeling you're describing. Like being on the verge of making something amazing happen. Just not quite sure what it is yet, but knowing and believing it's happening. Or already on it's way. Good for you for inspiring yourself.
ReplyDeleteRight, it's a feeling of change. Thank you so much :)
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I'm glad you're feeling better! I know the empty feeling and I see it the same way... Personal growth. To me there is just something about starting over and working from the bottom that's so satisfying in the end.
ReplyDelete"You're braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think."
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I love that quote. I hope you start to feel less empty and more full soon :) empty sounds like an improvement on sad though!
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