Wednesday, January 16, 2013
This print really sums up what I've been focusing on for the past few weeks. Every day, I wake up and I think "just get through today".
I'm actually kind of happy at the moment. I'm not upset anymore. For a few days there, I was really upset. Now I'm just kind of....empty. I know that the word 'empty' sounds negative but I'm not viewing it that way.
Sometimes when I'm really happy and I don't have anything to gripe about, I worry that I'm not being realistic about things. That I'm not being honest with myself. I know this isn't healthy duh but I can't help it. Also, it doesn't REALLY keep me from being happy. It's just something that crosses my mind from time to time when things are good.
To say that I'm 'empty', to me, means that I have this opportunity to really work on myself. To build myself back up and hopefully make some improvements. I always say that I want to make changes in my life but I'm always so wrapped up in that life to slow down and examine what I actually want to work on. This time, where I've been feeling so blue, has brought a kind of...silence to my life and I hate to say it but....it may be just what I need. Now that the hurt has passed, all I'm left with is the emptiness. And emptiness means that there is room in me for growth.
I'm thinking of this as the knot in the end of my rope. Something to hold on to.
That and the fact that I have some awesome things planned for this blog. I can't thank you darlings enough for all of your support through was has been an unexpected difficult time for me. I'm thinking of a way to thank you guys that I hope you'll love.
Tomorrow is Thursday! Let's finish this week out on a high note.